Show me who you really are. I first saw this class movie in the 8th. My relationship with the class left much to be desired. I didn’t like movies at the time and I watched them half-eyed. It was just this music, this eerie music and a couple of strange psychological scenes that struck me so, so deeply into my memory. Unfortunately, I didn’t watch the movie then, my parents came and I was afraid to watch it in front of them. But the memories remained, and later, after a while, I started looking for this underground film. My search was finally successful. The film did not disappoint and made the same indelible impression as the first time, and maybe even stronger, because after all, I grew a little and began to perceive many things differently. This is a very complex psychological drama. I found out that there was a book on which this film was made, but unfortunately I didn’t read it for the simple reason that it wasn’t translated into Russian (although I have it in both English and Polish). Well, I will try to understand and understand the characters of the main characters.
Marysia herself is a simple girl from the province, she herself admits that she does not know how to talk to people and behave in society. No wonder she is easily influenced by others. First Kasya, then Eva... She repeats after them, thinking she has finally found herself. It is so naive and simple at first glance. From the very beginning, her life was not very happy to remember at least her expression when her mother told her about her future. If you look closely at the face of the main character, then everything becomes clear without words.
Her desperate and naive request to God - they say that she will first be friends with Kasya, try to know herself, and then become good again - is interesting. At the moment of this prayer, I noticed one detail - Marysia stands in front of the mirror and is reflected in such a way that three of her appear on the screen - correlated with Minka - that is what Kasia calls her, with Maika - that is what Eva calls her - and Marysey herself. And the ease with which she spits in holy water at Kasi's behest? There is a sense of puppetry. Whoever pulls the rope will follow. And after this fatal spit of Maryya in front of his eyes changes and becomes a complete bitch.
The first time that she is no one, says Maryya herself: “Either I hurt myself weakly, or I am nothing to him.” Some fatal words, as if calling herself so, she signed the sentence herself.
Kasia. A strange girl, proud and independent, self-confident and a little arrogant. She writes music and considers herself a great composer. Her conversations with the invisible boy Jigi, allegedly dictating her music, her extravagant antics and free-thinking make her completely unpredictable and exotic. An extraordinary and interesting person. The fact that she stands out from the crowd is visible only after a few views of the episode - in a drawing lesson, when all the children draw a stuffed bird, Kasia depicts this bird with proudly opened wings alive and soaring. . .
As for Eva... I think she's just a spoiled rich woman. I just don't understand how they could be friends with Kasya. It remains a mystery to me. Apparently, the opposites really attract. Even though those are the opposites? After all, Kasya often behaves disgustingly with all his independence. Perhaps they are worth each other.
In general, the whole film is some kind of paranoid - of the hooked and remembered moments I can point to the blind brother Marysi, who at night wanders around the apartment, stumbling on the TV not turned off with interference, Marysi rabbits, slaughtered on meat, the insides of which she presses to herself in a jar, or cuts on the veins of the class leader.
What about music? Trembling on the skin from sounds so precisely selected to describe the emotional feelings and events taking place. It is difficult to describe it, you just need to hear, or rather, watch the film itself, because without music it would lose its atmosphere. Bravo, Andrzej Kozhinsky!
So the ending is dramatic. Marysya becomes a nobody girl. But for some reason I did not feel much pity. Probably because she remembered the dream of Marysi, and in reality her conversations with her mother are rude and too arrogant. Marysia wants to know herself. She wanted to know who she was inside. Well, she found out... And what opened and came out is like poison and bile, accumulated for a long time. Terrible. Her identity is gone. There's no self. She can’t answer the basic question of why she laughs. Kasia tells her. With a proud look, she talks about life and consciousness, retelling Kasi’s monologues to her mother, and she even repeats simple phrases. Eva and Kasya even call her each differently: one Minkoy, the other Maika. Even in clothes - with Kasya she walks in gypsy skirts, with Eva - in expensive and fashionable clothes. She has no inner peace of her own. But it is not only her fault, but her simple provincial upbringing. So it's no wonder she was so impressed with Kasya and Eve. Still sad. What does she do now? What will happen to her soul, which seems to be completely broken, destroyed and without support? .
Strong movie. A strange residue remains after viewing. After watching this movie again after a while, I realized that the choice of Marysi between the two girls is deeper than it seems at first glance – it is a spiritual choice. “You can’t be good and evil at the same time,” because you can become a nobody.
10 out of 10